Monday, August 29, 2005

about me

Global Personality Test Results
Stability (66%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness (86%) very high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.
Extraversion (23%) low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.
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trait snapshot:

secretive, organized, clean, rarely worries, solitary, high self control, dislikes large parties, prefers organized to unpredictable, prudent, observer, tough, self reliant, very good at saving money, introverted, perfectionist, mind over heart, not controlling of others, hard working, confident, resolute, solitary, does not make friends easily, finisher, does not like to stand out, very practical, intellectual, unsympathetic at times, honest, respects authority, follows the rules, cautious

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

time

ahhh... time. i subscribe mostly because it's an easy way to catch up on mainstream media.

here's a snippet from the latest issue (8/29), article "bickering about the border"

in regards to how we "allow" "illegal" immigrants into the country:

"the GOP is split between those who want tougher security first and those who seek comprehensive reform."

which i think would be more accurately written as

"the GOP is split between those who want to be re-elected by their jingoistic, racist supporters and those who seek bigger corporate donorship."

oh, but that's not just the GOP. that's all the pols in the two-party oligarchy.

Friday, August 19, 2005

fight

got into a fight with my boss yesterday.

although i regret acting the way i did the whole thing helped me to realize some things.

1. i regret acting the way i did not because it was toward my boss toward whom i should hold to a higher level of behavior on my part, but b/c that is not the person i want to be.

2. ultimately i am here everyday for my self. not for my boss, but for me. because this is what i want to do. i don't know why or what it will lead to but this time and place is for me.

3. my behavior needs to change. i asked God this morning to help me focus on humility and patience this coming year. just as i shouldn't have been rude toward my boss, i shouldn't be rude to anyone around me. this will require a crash course in humility and patience. and by "crash course" i mean lifelong journey. so that's what i'm hoping for.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

back

durn, i was hoping i had updated this thing, allowing me to at least think i could do once a month. but alas, i couldn't even manage that.

well, here it is mid august already. i'm really happy this week. for several reasons:

a. new apartamento! yup, now it's just me and dudley. a wonderful two bedroom in a nice, pretty quiet neighborhood in somerville near ball square. since noone knows where ball square is: about 15 min walk back from porter square, perpindicular to mass ave into somerville. all i need now is my kitty to make the place complete.

b. i'm finally going to be getting to do single molecule experiments this week or next. basically, two years into research i'm finally getting to the bread and soy-margarine of my work.

c. my heart is starting to feel really free of the bondage that has captured it the last, oh, eight months or so.
and i found a new church and i really want to dive in there and get to know people and make new friends. granted, i really miss BWC, which i struggle with but i just know i can't go back. it's like that great protaganist willy wonka says: you have to go forward to go back.

so here i am.

and i really AM going to try to update this more often, and let people know about it, which may provide imputus to be more faithful to "blogging".